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September 11th, 2010

01:49 pm
I guess you could say I've been out of control lately. My moods are all over the place and I know he's not trying to intentionally hurt me but I'm starting to think that I'm better off on my own. I hate waiting constantly for texts or calls...I hate constantly feeling like I'm being dependent on someone else...I absolutely hate not being independent anymore.

I admit he's a nice guy...he just really doesn't know what he's doing..is this mean of me?
some days I swear I hate him and others I can't get him out of my mind. I don't know what to do, I'm a mess. No, this is not love, this is me keeping one foot on the ground.

I might be turning cold inside because I never want to do anything with anyone anymore. For example, everyone's at the football game and I'm home studying (well, I was...) because I didn't want to be around a crap load of people.

I wish things would just calm down in my life...there's too much crap happening with my family in Germany and I can't even help.

I wish I could live a few days without feelings.

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March 19th, 2010

11:34 am
my life is so good in this new town. I found the perfect friends and my life is finally getting back to what I've always wanted.
Yaaaaaaaay Beverly;) I love it!

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December 11th, 2009

10:17 pm
i hate when this happens ... it leaves my life for a while and then all of a sudden it just creeps its way back in. This is a vicious cycle and I can't seem to stop it.

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December 2nd, 2009

06:51 pm
My life is so boring now, I want an adventure. I need an adventure. I need friends in this new town that would be ready for any kind of adventure.

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November 10th, 2009

10:31 pm
so ne verkackte scheisse.
where do you get off correcting me? you're the american!
scheiss drauf, hab kein lust mehr auf schule oder die beschissene lehrer die es hier gibt.

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November 3rd, 2009

10:01 am
school has started, well like 2 months ago & I've already made some friends. I'm so thankful that it didn't take too long. I was smart to just talk to anyone on the first two days ha ha
I think of my time in Germany a lot but I can't do anything about it now.

hello beverly.

Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Maria Mena <3

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August 23rd, 2009

04:41 pm
so much on my mind, too much to do.

1 wk left? srsly? :S

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August 18th, 2009

06:10 pm
if living at home were any harder right now I think i would have killed myself by now.

i need to get out of here!!!!!!!!!!!!

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July 16th, 2009

04:50 pm
I hate this fucking town, its so fucking boring.

its not gonna get any better though...

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July 13th, 2009

08:10 am
I'm really not surprised that you haven't called to hang out yet...I know we say that we'll hang out sometime but I secretly knew all along you would never actually do it.

i don't know why I wait for you...there's absolutely no reason.

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