September 11th, 2010
I guess you could say I've been out of control lately. My moods are all over the place and I know he's not trying to intentionally hurt me but I'm starting to think that I'm better off on my own. I hate waiting constantly for texts or calls...I hate constantly feeling like I'm being dependent on someone else...I absolutely hate not being independent anymore.
I admit he's a nice guy...he just really doesn't know what he's doing..is this mean of me?
some days I swear I hate him and others I can't get him out of my mind. I don't know what to do, I'm a mess. No, this is not love, this is me keeping one foot on the ground.
I might be turning cold inside because I never want to do anything with anyone anymore. For example, everyone's at the football game and I'm home studying (well, I was...) because I didn't want to be around a crap load of people.
I wish things would just calm down in my life...there's too much crap happening with my family in Germany and I can't even help.
I wish I could live a few days without feelings.
March 19th, 2010
my life is so good in this new town. I found the perfect friends and my life is finally getting back to what I've always wanted.
Yaaaaaaaay Beverly;) I love it!
December 11th, 2009
i hate when this happens ... it leaves my life for a while and then all of a sudden it just creeps its way back in. This is a vicious cycle and I can't seem to stop it.
December 2nd, 2009
My life is so boring now, I want an adventure. I need an adventure. I need friends in this new town that would be ready for any kind of adventure.
November 10th, 2009
so ne verkackte scheisse.
where do you get off correcting me? you're the american!
scheiss drauf, hab kein lust mehr auf schule oder die beschissene lehrer die es hier gibt.
November 3rd, 2009
school has started, well like 2 months ago & I've already made some friends. I'm so thankful that it didn't take too long. I was smart to just talk to anyone on the first two days ha ha
I think of my time in Germany a lot but I can't do anything about it now.
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: Maria Mena <3
August 23rd, 2009
so much on my mind, too much to do.
1 wk left? srsly? :S
August 18th, 2009
if living at home were any harder right now I think i would have killed myself by now.
i need to get out of here!!!!!!!!!!!!
July 16th, 2009
I hate this fucking town, its so fucking boring.
its not gonna get any better though...
July 13th, 2009
I'm really not surprised that you haven't called to hang out yet...I know we say that we'll hang out sometime but I secretly knew all along you would never actually do it.
i don't know why I wait for you...there's absolutely no reason.